Today is this guy's birthday...

Well actually the day we "celebrate" it :-) We went to our county's animal shelter 7 years ago tonight and picked out the most lovable, 86 lb. lap-dog you will ever meet! He was found just a month earlier wondering in a nearby city and picked up by the police, lol, and had just become available for adoption. The best $70 we have ever spent! He is such a blessing to us and brings meaning to the phrase "therapy dog". Brought to us at just the perfect time in our lives. I actually hope to get him in therapy dog school within the next couple years. He was about a year to year and a half when we got him and still acts like an energetic puppy at times! Just last year he jumped over the back of our couch to get to my sister who just came in the front door!

Happy Birthday Jesse, from your proud momma!

I was reminded today...

"You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed." ~Psalm 139:16

So thankful for that reminder.

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Sometimes I feel...

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....it's hard to put into words what is on my mind.
....that the world has moved on and doesn't acknowledge our loss of a dream.
....that others think if I show that I have moved forward in the grief/acceptance process of our loss, they will think I have given up on the dream of parenthood.
....that others will give up any sensitivity they may have had towards our childless state, if they see me moving on.
....that I might never get to hug my own child or be called mom.
....that we will be all alone at the end of our lives.
....that being around children and rooms full of happy people just magnifies what we don't have. To both us and others.
....that others have moved on, as is expected, and we are "stuck".
...that others may never understand what it is like to be dealt such a blow, and I know I can't expect them to know exactly.

And it hurts.

When you know a Childless/Childfree Couple...

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Here is an article I read within the past couple weeks that I'm just getting around to posting. But it is so spot-on I just have to share.

And the comments on articles like this never cease to amaze me. "I don't know anyone who would make these comments...." Insert :rolleyes: